Welcome to mommyhood

He's finally here. Our little boy Bear has arrived on June 28th 2010. And boy did he make for an exciting entrance into this world. Cliff notes version of his birth story.... We wanted a natural birth, during labor I decided that natural birth was not for me. HA! I was stuck at home immobile because the contractions were so strong I kept on trying to muster up the strength to get ready to go to the hospital to get an epidural by the time that happened we got in the car and the first thing I said was... " I think I have to push!" In unison by husband and his mom say "DON'T PUSH!!!" We got to the hospital, I get put in the wheelchair and immediately get taken into the laboring room. The nurse checked me said I was ready and I was going to have this baby in A FEW MINUTES!! 15 minutes later he was here and guess what.... I got the natural birth I planned. God works in amazing ways. Without further ado may I introduce the newest member of out family, Bear

Pretty cute huh? Well it's been almost a month and I finally feel like I'm getting the hang of having someone completely dependent of me. It's nothing like what I thought it was, a lot harder but I am so much more in love with him than I ever thought possible.

swimming Bear

We signed B up for swim lessons as he seems to love water. ( I know, I know every mom says that... but it's true) He seemed to like it okay despite the 65 degree non California weather that surprised us this morning. But he was a trooper and looked like he was having fun towards the end.

This little guy is 10 and half months old and I am in shock at how fast the time has gone. I mean he is almost A YEAR OLD!!!!!! WHAT??????

It's the day before my first official mothers day and I cannot believe how blessed I am to have this baby boy in my life. It's weird I know people always say that kids change your whole perspective on life. I always thought it was pretty mellow dramatic... but you know what? It's true. I am a better person because of him and know the true meaning of unconditional love and putting someone else' need before you. AT ALL TIMES by the way :) And now with a new little boy on the way only God knows what lessons I am going to learn with him. All I know is that I am so lucky to be a mother and a daughter of a mother who always showed me what it was to sacrifice for your children and love every minute of it.

Happy Mothers Day

Week 26...Feeling overwhelmed

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Where has this month gone? Geez! Well we are at week 26 and right about now I am feeling a little under the weather. Really tired and REALLY overwhelmed. I keep thinking that there are a billion women in the world that have responsibilities while pregnant and they get what they need done. Right about now I feel like maybe I am just not that brave or strong. I feel like there is just so much on my plate. Baby, work, getting the house ready for baby, birthing classes, being a wife, and still being a kind and calm person during all of this is feeling like an overwhelming task. Then add the exhaustion and sicky feelings I've had this week and I give up.

Okay so maybe I'm just having a bit of a pity party but that is just how I'm feeling. I took the day off of work and am trying to rest and regroup my thoughts. I just have to remember that I am not doing this alone. I have God and I have a loving husband and family that will walk with me every step of the way. I just have to make that me mantra for time like this "I am NOT alone".